Back Before Dawn

<p class=ql-align-center><strong style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>It's a struggle to find a soulmate.</strong><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)> </span></p><p class=ql-align-center><br></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>Every day I paste a smile on my face get my kids out the door to school take care of my clients eight hours a day and pray that my commissions cover the bills. During the last thirteen years I married and divorced two disappointing men. The divorces were terrible. I'm partly to blame for the failed marriages but the bulk of it was their fault. I promise. </span></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)> </span></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>I'm still in touch with my first husband out of necessity since he's the father of my kids but it's a train wreck since we can't stand each other.  </span></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>I love my kids with all my heart but I'm tired of raising them alone. </span></p><p><br></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>Late at night after they are asleep I log onto my three favorite dating apps and dream that the next swipe could change my life. The attention I receive online makes me forget that I'm a frantic single mom with the weight of the world on my shoulders. Most nights I run out to meet a match if they sound promising but many of these guys are tragically dysfunctional in person and one of them even started stalking me. I had to file a protective order. My friends tell me that my life is spinning out of control but I know my soulmate is out there. </span></p><p><br></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>I just have to find him.    </span></p><p><br></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>Don't judge me. </span></p><p><br></p><p><span style=color: rgba(166 166 166 1)>I'm always back before dawn. </span></p>