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<p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>First of all there is a symbolic amputation: this is not a love story.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Not even letters.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Not even redemption.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>This is a hemorrhage contained in paper so maybe it bleeds slowly like a razor forgotten in the inside pocket of a jacket. The kind you come back to when you've lost the fight.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>People have told me more than once that writing love letters is a sign of weakness.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>I disagree.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Weakness is pretending you don't feel it.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Weakness is memorizing speeches about detachment while dreaming of a touch that no longer exists.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Weakness is having words and not using them.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Loving is something else it's a kind of permitted violence a vice that cannot be rehabilitated.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>I don't know if I've ever loved. Of course you have that's stu-pid. Of course I have otherwise I wouldn't be writing this book.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>In fact I don't even know if what I felt was love or if it was just a well-dressed need with Italian shoes and ironic promises that life made to me.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>I just know that I wrote it.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>And that was enough.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(40 40 40 1)>Writing has always been my way of pretending to be alive. And if there are letters in this book it's because there were silences too dense to bear.</span></p>