Beautifully Sinful Lips

I could never describe the pain men have caused meUntil one day I took a pen to a paperAnd the pain flowedI want you to know I can relate to numbnessNot having worth waking up next to different menI survived self sabotageI didn't do it by loving myself or knowing I was worth itI did it by writingWriting my painWriting about the devilWriting about the woman in the mirrorWriting about my haunting shadowsThe devil for me was always a manThe women in the mirror is my choicesAnd my shadows are my consequencesThese realizations of my life and myselfHelped me heal of a painI had hiddenA pain of a toxic relationshipThat almost killed meThis is how healedIt's a journey and I know now it's never ending