Because I'm Not Myself You See

<h2><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>A frank hopeful and darkly funny memoir of postpartum psychosis and recovery</span></h2><p></p><p><strong style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)><em>'I do not know who I am anymore or where I have gone ...'</em></strong></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>Ariane Beeston is a child protection worker and newly registered psychologist when she gives birth to her first child - and very quickly begins to experience scary breaks with reality. Out of fear and shame she keeps her delusions and hallucinations secret but as the months pass Ariane gets worse. Much worse. Finally admitted to a mother and baby psychiatric unit the psychologist is forced to learn how to be the patient.</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>With medication the support of her husband psychotherapy and ultimately time Ariane rebuilds herself. And she also begins a new chapter working in perinatal mental health developing resources to support other new mothers.</span></p><p></p><p><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>Because I'm Not Myself You See</em><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)> is a candid often humorous memoir of motherhood and madness interwoven with research and expert commentary. It's the story of the impossible pressures placed on new mothers and how quickly things can go wrong during 'the happiest time of your life'. It's also about life on the other side of serious illness trying to make sense of what doesn't make sense and finding humour beauty and joy when things don't go according to plan.</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>'Blistering beautiful true' -Susan Johnson author of </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>A Better Woman</em><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)> </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>From Where I Fell</em><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)> and </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>Aphrodite's Breath</em></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>'Ariane Beeston's honesty poetry and wisdom will save lives.' --Anna Spargo-Ryan author of </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>A Kind of Magic</em></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>'Both riveting and informative this is an unflinching look at what it is like from inside postpartum psychosis.' --Anne Buist Professor of Women's Mental Health University of Melbourne and co-author with Graeme Simsion of </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>The Glass House</em></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>'A memoir like no other ... sing[s] with mordant humour on the page' -Geordie Williamson</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(51 51 51 1)>'A beautifully written raw and important memoir for anyone who has had a baby' -Daisy Turnbull</span></p>