**Special 2018 Re-Release Edition** Re-visit the book that started it all the author's original first full-length self-published Poetry collection. An amalgam of sentiment revolving around the death of the author's 4 year old son in 2013 the collection is vivid visceral and throbbing with dream-like surrealist catharsis. Traversing such subject matter as masculine extermination and feminine oppression Goddess worship and demonic possession birth motherhood addiction and illness this collection of poems reflects an artist brutally honest and self-accountable sensitive and compassionate defining and defending her life her loves her family her story and her spiritual foundation on her terms. Includes pages of raw unedited unfiltered full-color personal photography taken by the poet and her family