Boyhood Days

<p>It's about the excitement at the start of a magical love affair. </p><p>It's about being in love everyone knows apart from the person you're in love with. </p><p>It's about a fear of the dark which can be conquered by somebody you love being there. </p><p>It's about the end of a possibility the end of hope. </p><p>It's about dreaming. </p><p>It's about escape and flying. </p><p>It's about winning.</p><p>It's about an idealistic gay utopia but looking back in hindsight it wasn't the utopia they all thought it would be. </p><p>It's about how cities come and go. </p><p>It's about my childhood. </p><p>It's about the end of a relationship. </p><p>It's about someone I know. </p><p>It's about people not believing each other. </p><p>It's about not being disappointed. </p><p>It's about being disappointed. </p><p>It's about how you can almost be there without getting there. </p><p>It's about class about rough boys getting a bit of posh. </p><p>It's about growing old and that when you've reached a certain age you've survived this far you're still alive. </p><p>It's about waiting for someone to tell you they love you. </p><p>It's about saying goodbye.</p><p> </p><p><em>'Beautiful Mess</em> (the original title) was written between the years 1987/1997. They are explorations and observations they part document my ever changing attitudes. I present to you a twilight world of neon and the unknown of secret dreams and deals of contrasting morals and different codes where the young are the heroes and the losers are saints where the ugly is beautiful and the beautiful more beautiful in the gutter where gold is found we are all just a beautiful mess.' </p><p>Mark Binmore. London 1998. </p>