CO/NOTATIONS

CO/NOTATIONS by Sarah Cavar embodies a pair of trans(genre) lyric essays published in 2018 with The Offing and 2020 with the since-fallen 3: am Magazine respectively. For the first time this book pairs these two essays and sees them in thick conversation. ____ A critically hybrid text Cavar's CO/NOTATIONS explores what it means to 'unwoman' as an artistic craft theoretical methodology and ontological position. Through lyrical rumination and a braided deconstruction of gender 'unwomaning' becomes the shedding of normative gender roles the expansion of femininity beyond the biological category of 'female ' and an experimental reckoning into 'transreality.' How can we understand transness beyond medical legal and social categories? What are the radical potentialities of trans aesthetics as we consider gender's psychic and material affects on/in the body-mind? How can we engage in conversations about gender under a narrative of autonomy and transformative (un)belonging? The speaker asks 'What if I (still) don't love my body and never did?' Maybe coming into transreality is not the promise of belonging in/to one's body but the fierce and unrelenting longing to find happiness and love outside the cisgender realities that confine us. -MT Vallarta Author of What You Refuse to Remember Cavar is a sharp wordsmith in the soft ethereal realm of gender. These essays are enrapturing and witty-you can hear the genuine heartbeat in every one. Whether you're someone who seeks words for your gender someone who dances in its fluidity with no need to define it or living anywhere in between: this text is a wealth of exploration.-Sofia Fey Founder of the Luminaries Poetry Workshop and Poetry Editor at Hooligan Magazine In CO/NOTATIONS Cavar offers up 'frag/mince' of an intimate reflection on transreality and trans existence. In a delicate yet powerful concert of poetic and didactic movements Cavar machetes identity norms constructions and objectifications to reveal the limitless complexities and continuums of the human body. 'The body begins as forest ' Cavar writes. This work takes us on a journey through the en/trails entangled limbs and dense thicket of selves selving selves salving always evolving always undone. -Kate Siklosi Author of Selvage