Crossing the Deserts of Life

I Meditated On How I Could Establish A Relationship With God. I'Ve Come To Believe That It Was Necessary For Me To Encountered My Past So That I Would Eventually Seek Him. In My Life Experiences I'Ve Always Found Myself Wandering And Alone With No One To Give Me Guidance Or Encouragement. It Seemed Like I Was Bewildered And Lost As I Trudged Through My Life. My Desert-Like Crossings Were Emotionally And Mentally Exhausting But Turn Out To Be A Learning Experience. I Learned To Journal Some Episodes Of My Past And This Book Is The Reward Of Doing That. I'M Sometimes Able To See The Error Of My Ways And Now Am Capable To Pray For Change And Not Make The Same Mistakes Again. I'Ve Come To A Place In My Life Where I Can See My Emotional And Spiritual Growth From My Book. I Saw How At Time I Was Self-Absorbed And I Did Not Trust Anyone Not Even God. I'M Able To Reflect Back On The Struggles And Confusion Of My Adolescent Not Knowing What Direction To Take Never Making Rational Decisions. Some Of My Experiences Led Me Deep Into The Deserts And Made Me Consider Turning My Life Over To God. Never Did I Realized That These Difficulties Would Catapult Me To A Spiritual Dimension That Revealed God'S Love For Me. God Still Continues To Develop And Mature My Relationship With Him. I Concluded That As Long As I Stayed Self-Reliant And Self-Centered I Would Be Distant From God Then My Relationship With Others Will Remain Empty And Desolate Like A Desert. Because Of His Unconditional Love For Me He Has Led Me To A Place Of Rest And Restoration Away From The Confusion In My Desert An Oasis In The Desert.