Don't Abort the Seed

<P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''>I thought I knew him.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>I thought I was filled with his Holy Spirit.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>After all I had been raised in a pentacostal church for over 23 years.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>I had served faithfully on every committee you can think of.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>I was even ordained at the young age of 18 and it was after all this that I thought I knew him.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office /></SPAN></B></P><P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''> </SPAN></B></P><P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''>In the spring of 1992 I was coming home from another boring Sunday church service.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>My heart was broken I actually felt worse on the drive home than I did on the drive there.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>Tears streaming down my face I could not understand why I did not feel renewed.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>After all is this not why we go to church?<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>As I pulled the car in the front yard it seemed as if I was a time bomb just waiting to explode.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>When all of a sudden with one question from my oldest son sent me into a rage.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>All of my frustrations from that Sunday service came pouring out of me.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>Words not fit for the ears of sailors on a pirate's ship let alone the innocent ears of young children that had been raised in </SPAN></B><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''>church all of their lives.<BR style=mso-special-character: line-break><BR style=mso-special-character: line-break></SPAN></B></P><P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''>To see the surprised look on their faces was more than I could bear.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>You see at that time in my life I had 5 children.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>My oldest three children were 141312<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>and my younger two were 6 and 4 years of age.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>Never before had they ever heard me use such lanquage.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>Profanity; oh that kind of language if you can call it that was not apart of my vocabulary.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>I have always dispised people who felt the need to express themselves in such a way.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>People who vocabulary was so limited until they could not express themselves without making you feel bad and here I was sister hollier than thou using profanity.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>This was a shock even to me.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>But it was at that moment that I realized that I no longer knew God.<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN>Can you imagine how I must have felt?<SPAN style=mso-spacerun: yes> </SPAN></SPAN></B></P><P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro''''> </SPAN></B></P><P class=MsoBodyText style=MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt; TEXT-ALIGN: justify><B style=mso-bidi-font-weight: normal><SPAN style=FONT-FAMILY: ''''Warnock Pro