End to Beginning

<p class=ql-align-justify><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>At the edge when even breath became a struggle Tanner Critz found himself laid low-not in the wilderness but in his own home a shell of the man who once walked the Appalachian Trail. </span><em style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>End to Beginning</em><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)> is a raw and luminous account of what happened next: a journey not across mountains but into the depths of memory mystery and healing.</span></p><p class=ql-align-justify></p><p class=ql-align-justify><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>Guided by a friend he enters the world of Ayahuasca ceremony in a suburban house far from the jungles of South America but no less potent. The book recounts four transformative retreats over the course of two-and-a-half years where the author battles despair dredges up long-buried guilt and confronts both his past and his potential with astonishing vulnerability.</span></p><p class=ql-align-justify></p><p class=ql-align-justify><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>There are no easy revelations here. What unfolds is equal parts psychedelic psychological and mythic: visions of flesh heart energy and power. As the ceremonies progress Critz learns to let go-not just of illness but of the identity that illness had transformed. What emerges is not the return of an old self but the shaping of a new one.</span></p><p class=ql-align-justify></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>Told with warmth grit and flashes of the surreal </span><em style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>End to Beginning</em><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)> is a memoir of healing fatherhood and initiation into life after collapse. It stands as a companion piece to </span><em style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>End to Ending</em><span style=background-color: rgba(0 0 0 0); color: rgba(0 0 0 1)>-a second trail walked inward toward the root of suffering and the strange luminous possibility of joy.</span></p>