Father Or Not

Dishonesty deceit betrayal resentment and envy all played a part in my self-destructive life.The path in front of me was littered with unwanted emotions. I fought my inner man constantlyagainst the truth. The surface of my life seemed normal to the onlooking eye but the reality ofwho I really was and what Id been taught to be was anything but normal. It was a rollercoasterof confusion and false hope planted and harvested by the woman I placed above God Himself my mother She was the driven force of whom I wanted to please.But the darkness in her told a different story of who she was. It would be years before the veilthat covered her deceitfulness showed itself. Her promises reeled me in and her trust blindedme from the destruction waiting in the distance. I knew nothing nor was I told anything aboutthe parents that had been chosen for me. I had but one alternative to turn to the man in my life my father. But little did I know his role in my life was as devastating as my mothers. He wasthe absolute secret and the reality of who he was would one day test my love for him.