Freer

<p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>Freedom is an illusion.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>I've learned that lesson well. I was abducted from my home along with several other women. We were kept in captivity by one alien race then rescued by another.</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>But it all seems so cozy now doesn't it? Living together in a big happy group guarded by our alien saviors. My fellow captives have all paired up with their chosen protector and are playing happy marriage-everyone except me and a lone male alien Ryth.</span></p><p></p><p><strong style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>He watches me and although the expectation remains unspoken I sense from the other girls that they want me to end up as his mate.</strong></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>But what if I don't want that? Don't I get a say?</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>But sometimes the loneliness of being stranded on an alien world gets to me. During these moments my desire for physical connection grows strong and in my weakness my mind turns to Ryth. But what if I only think I want him because there are no other options? I'm pretty sure he deserves better.</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>My behavior confuses him as much as it confuses me. I'm constantly battling between guilt and my physical and emotional needs. He challenges me and we often clash. Ryth is pushing to see the real me I think but after everything that's happened I'm not sure who I am anymore.</span></p><p></p><p><strong style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(30 25 21 1)>And if that isn't enough a secret fear is growing inside me which is destined to push me to the edge. Once it's out there won't be any going back and I'm not sure even Ryth's love can save me.</strong></p>