Grace Mercy and Love

While writing this non-fictional book of true Testimonies about my life it was the hardest thing that I ever had to do; crying while re-living and re-writing my past and seeing my life in black and white; was self-crucifixion. The Holy Spirit made me write this book to expose myself; to use me as an example to help someone out there who feels like all hope is gone. So as I am ministering to you I am also ministering to myself. Living my life is one thing but writing this book made me realize how much of a sinner that I truly was; I was hard-headed stubborn disobedient didnt like to be told what to do; just one sin after another. Yes the Lord chastised me; but He didnt kill me. Although my life was not perfect but rather pure hell Id ask myself why does God love me so much?The Holy Spirit is using my life story as a Testimony to help save someone out there who is ready to give up and throw in the towel for them to see that they too can be an overcomer. Trust me Id been there; molested as a child homeless escaped death twice suicidal in an abusive marriage: mentally and physically. I hated myself and I question God; why? Some days I cried all day and all night regretting the day that I was born. Then there were other times that I thought that I had messed up so bad with God that God had ran out of Mercies for me. Going through one storm after another one trial after another only to have failed them over and over and over. In spite of my many failures God didnt give up on me. He was right there pruning me shaping me and molding me to be His masterpiece; so He can get all of the Glory out of my life. He uses my lifes experiences as an open-book to let someone out there know that He is right there with you. While you are going through your storms; which is your Ministry He promise to never leave you nor forsake you; if you dont believe me read my book for yourself. I am just a sinner saved by Gods Grace His Mercy and His unconditional Love is what kept me. He is the Alpha and Omega- the beginning and the end.