How I Learned to Love You

<p><em>How can you call yourself a mother if you can't even love your child?</em></p><p>This was the question Skadi asked themselves as their newborn child snuggled across the hospital room safe in the plexiglass bassinet. All their life they had been forced to be a mother in one way or another to someone else. Now when it was finally their time to choose to be one to a child that they desperately wanted they found their heart horrifically empty.</p><p>How I Learned to Love You is the story of a parent with severe postpartum depression finding their way back to their child. It is also the story of a polyamorous nonbinary transmasc queer person with CPTSD finding their way back to themselves.</p>