I did a Very Bad Thing

For anyone that chooses to read this this is my way of saying that there is nothing that you have done that can remove the love of God. He knows what is in your heart he knows what is in your mind he will never stop giving you the opportunities to heal yourself even if you can’?t. His love and mercy are endless. Even though we are human and imperfect we cannot judge or anticipate that God will feel for us the same way that we may feel about ourselves that is what makes him far greater than us. So you need to embrace your life what has happened has happened you cannot change that but you can change your-self now. You can through accepting the love and the faith of God into your lives and know that there is forgiveness through him. For so long I carried the shame and the pain of what I had done and it affected my life and the life of those around me. Even though they loved me and cared for me they could not help me. It was only through accepting God?s mercy that I could forgive myself I won’t lie to you that I don?t sometimes remember the pain but now when I consider my children?s I see what the Lord has done. God has a plan for all of us. We just have to embrace it and allow God into our lives so that we might become the person that he wants us to be. Please know that through Him every dream can and will be realized every desire can be granted it is not because we have earned it which is the way we were taught to believe. I have learned that God does not work like this. God will love you and accept you when you are ready to accept him and realize that the only one punishing you is yourself. As for me I thank God that I saw the light through that wonderful family sought me out all the way from America. God is good and will always be faithful to find us and bring us back home no matter how far we have gone or no matter how bad a thing we have done. As a father has compassion on his children so God has for us he will not always chide us He understands our frame our frailties our short comings He knows how fragile our minds are and how weak our flesh is. As far as the heavens are from the earth so far has He re- moved our transgres-sions from us and He says if our sin be as red as crimson He makes us white again even as wool. (Psalm 103:12-14). We have a loving Father committed Lover an everlasting Friend He won’t give up on us even when we are sure we don?t qualify He quali-fies us He sends us help even when we are not talking to Him and run away from Him He is always reaching out to hold us in His embrace and tell us “You are Mine and I won’t let you go”. Today I have 3 wonderful children. And am still very much in Love with Jesus. My journey in my short life has been interesting I have been separated from my husband and then widowed Life Happened to us but through it all I learnt to trust in Jesus and to Rely on my God (Isaiah 50:10). I have come a long way from being a fledging worship leader