I Never Thought I Would Be A Statistic

Have you ever been in so much pain that you thought dying would be the easiest way out? Have you ever felt so low and disgusting that you thought that nothing could ever make you whole or clean again? Have you ever been so lost in your mind that even thinking felt like an impossible task? You just want to lay down right here day after day after day. Your actions become just a repetition of movement and you are simply going through the motion. Somehow you manage to do everything that is expected from you but deep inside you have just become numb numb to the pain numb to the hurt numb to life.