I still think about you

Its cold weather and she is lying on the bed curled up within the confines of her blanket though awake she doesnt want to get out of bed. She was tired and after a late-night party she slept on her balcony. Her room was messy and untidy. She was half awake but she wakes up and moves towards the balcony to the sound of birds and sparrows and in the night its many activities yet everything seems gloomy to her. She was happy but this time everything was against her .she stand on the railing and look into the distance life was also as dark as this night she questioned herself                Why do I always find myself all alone like this? Since I have had you for the last few years why am I still suffering? I am computing your wishes and trying to fill the emptiness that you give. She begins thinking about the past. There are so many memories that made me happy. yet the overpowering memories are the once associated with negative emotions and the old me she thinks of her present the frustration which seems to have gripped her life she is tensed her head is aching and trying to calm down herself by saying I AM NOT ALONE I HAVE YOUR MEMORIES AND YOUR LOVE