I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

Bloomsbury presents I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki by Baek Sehee read by Jully Lee. The internationally bestselling therapy memoir translated by International Booker Prize shortlisted Anton Hur. PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you? ME: I don’t know I’m – what’s the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail? Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her – what to call it? – depression? She feels persistently low anxious endlessly self-doubting but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting overwhelming and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless why can she always summon a desire for her favorite street food: the hot spicy rice cake tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops knee-jerk reactions and harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir part self-help book I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.