I’m Not as Well as I Thought I Was

<p><b>'One of the most powerful books of the year'</b> <i>Daily Mail</i><br><br><b>'Nobody can make the serious funny and the funny serious quite like Ruby.' </b>- Alastair Campbell<br><br>Dear Reader,<br><br>Checking into a mental clinic wasn't exactly on my radar in 2022. Writing about it wasn't either. But here we are.<br><br>I spent a lifetime trying to create a 'front' to give everyone the illusion that all is well. It wasn't, and it isn't. Now I look back and I think, 'what the f*ck was that all about?'<br><br>I began the book trying to find meaning by going on various, life-changing journeys, I ended up in a mental clinic; obviously things didn't work out the way I expected. This is the story of what happened after the mental car crash . . . From then on, the journey had to turn inward. It turns out I wasn't looking for meaning, I was looking for home.<br><br>I'm not a fiction writer. I can't fake it. I could say I rode into the sunset, but life isn't like that unless you're a cowboy. Truth is I'm not as well as I thought I was.<br><br>These days, trying to stay sane in a completely chaotic world makes life incredibly difficult. For those readers who are deep in the darkness of mental illness, I hope my book makes you feel less alone.<br><br>Take care, love,<br>Ruby x<br><br>---------------------------------------------------------------------<br><br><b>'If you buy only one book this year, make it this one.'</b> - Joanna Lumley<br><br><b>'A true tour de force. We're all a little messed up in our own ways, but we should all strive to be as fabulously fearless as Ruby.' </b>- Fearne Cotton<br><br><b>As seen on Channel 5 Castaway</b><br><br><i>Sunday Times Bestseller, May 2021</i></p>