I'm Sorry

<p>The panic would set in and my mind raced.</p><p></p><p>My heart feeling like it was going to beat out of my chest the cold sweats and the uncontrollable shaking.</p><p></p><p>I remember thinking</p><p></p><p>Why? Why me?</p><p></p><p>I never thought this could happen in real life.</p><p></p><p>This is like something out of a movie.</p><p></p><p>How could both parents abandon me?</p><p></p><p>How could my adult relationships follow the same abusive patterns?</p><p></p><p>Why am I alone?</p><p></p><p>Why was I never enough?</p><p></p><p>How did I let my life get to this point?</p><p></p><p>Abuse homelessness more abuse bulimia cheating promiscuity being a single mom with no money more abuse and the list goes on.</p><p></p><p>One bad situation after another and nobody to turn to.</p><p></p><p>How in the world am I going to survive this?</p><p></p><p></p><p>I can't do this anymore as I shoved the handful of pills into my mouth and chugged almost a whole bottle of vodka before I drifted into numbness.</p><p></p><p>This is my story of physical and emotional abuse my desperate attempts to be loved and the chain of events that made me who I am today.</p><p></p><p>I made it. </p>