In Between Days

An epic memoir of heartbreaks travel comedy and the search for meaning In Between Days charts Luciana's journey from childhood to maturity feeling stuck and hopeless in her home country to finally taking the plunge to build her life away from the known. Leaving family and friends behind and daring to chase her dreams she jumps out of every comfort box in her path with the single aim of becoming a filmmaker in London. I was recruited as one of the Elegant Post couriers that June and was wondering whether to overcome my boring shyness and maybe send Goblin a small note. That thought came to me as I was returning to the main stalls area from my latest delivery and I was determined to act on it. Fate however had other plans. Within my field of vision the party continued on but like a time lapse there stood in the middle of the square my crush Goblin facing another girl I didn't know very close. He had his hands around her waist and hers were around his neck. Only they seemed to exist in that moment and although he had his back to me I could see the look of love in her eyes. It seemed to happen in slow motion but they kissed and stayed in that spell for a long while. I remember the scene like a shock as if it was suspended emotion in my heart like I could not feel the discomfort but I knew it was coming. I don't know how long I stood there probably long enough to make sure I wasn't imagining things. Phew what if I had sent him a note? I would have scrambled egg all over my face for the shame of it to become vulnerable and expose myself and direct my affections where they were unwanted. For me these events elicited high drama but mostly in my head. I never shared it with anyone but just collected the shattered pieces of my vanity and tried to quieten my heart until things turned out the way I wanted.