In My Head

At The Age Of Twenty-Two Pregnant With My Second Child I Fell Into A Deep Dark Hole Of Depression. I Had Fears That Overcame My Whole Being To The Point I Thought My Children Would Be Better Off If I Were Dead. I Wanted To Die. Severe Mania Came My Way At The Age Of Twenty-Six Years Old. I Had Psychotic Behavior Delusions Symptoms Of Schizophrenia And Paranoia Schizophrenia. I Was Diagnosed With Bi-Polar While Receiving Treatment In A Rehabilitation/Behavior Hospital. I Lived Ten Years With Lows Of Depression And Highs Of Mania. I Reached The Extreme High Of Yet Another Manic Episode In My Thirties. I Was Completely Out Of Reality And Was Not Able To Function Day To Day On My Own Once Again. In My Head Is A Memoir Of My Life Living With Bi-Polar With Explicit Details Of My Horrific Thoughts Out Of The Ordinary Behavior And My Treatment I Have Received. Without The Love And Support From My Family And The Treatment I Have Received From My Psychiatrist I Do Not Know If I Would Be Dead Or Alive Today. I Now Live A Fulfilling Life Without Allowing My Mental Illness To Destroy Me.