Indulging His Desire

<p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I've lived as half the man I used to be for the last four years.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I just simply... existed. I didn't feel anything I didn't indulge in anything I enjoyed I didn't even hardly smile or laugh anymore.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Or at least I had until a new neighbor moved into my building and captured my attention drawing me in like a moth to a flame. For the first time in four years something... stirred deep inside me.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I was obsessed from day one unable to keep my eyes away from the apartment's bedroom window directly across from my own like a fucking voyeur. The shades were never closed and my view into the mysterious bedroom was never obstructed.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>And therefore the object of my most recent desire was always on display for me and the more times I watched the show put on the surer I became that the curtains were left open on purpose for me.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>So I found myself staring waiting and hoping to catch glimpses of the tanned skin colored with bright tattoos or the dark brown hair that looked like silk or the sexy as hell piercing green eyes that would stare back at me as I watched.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>The problem though?</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>The object of my desire the very thing I'd become obsessed with sexually... was a man.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>And I was... straight.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Or at least I had been. </span></p>