Letters to Luca

<p><strong>A personal in-depth and over explicit account of my unrequited love through a collection of poems</strong></p><p><strong>musings and poetic prose.</strong></p><p><br></p><p>We fell in love as Winter gave way to Spring. Like the snow could not stay to share in the</p><p>changing season neither could you.</p><p><br></p><p>How can I leave when I miss you already?</p><p><br></p><p>You asked on the day of your departure...but you did. Mere days after you told me you loved me.</p><p><br></p><p>I would stay if I could.</p><p><br></p><p>You caught my face bringing my averted eyes to yours. I was scared to look into them scared</p><p>to believe the promises they held scared to put stock in the ones pouring from your lips in case</p><p>you didn't truly mean them.</p><p><br></p><p>I don't know how we will make it work but we will.</p><p><br></p><p>Three months later I would visit you in Italy. Silent tears spilling on the plane while watching</p><p>Call Me By Your Name. Terrified our story like theirs would end in vain.</p><p><br></p><p>You kissed me twice at the airport and again I couldn't look you in the eyes for fear I'd cry.</p><p><br></p><p>I'm so glad I got to show you all the people and places I love as you are one of them and always</p><p>will be ...and I knew you meant goodbye.</p><p><br></p><p>I wept the entire 12-hour journey home because it wasn't and never could be over for me.</p><p><br></p><p>I know I will wait for him as long as it takes. What scares me and breaks my heart is the fear</p><p>he won't do the same.</p><p><br></p><p><strong>You told me that if I ever missed you I should talk to you. That you would hear me. And</strong></p><p><strong>so I did. Three years and a dozen journals. My heart pouring through my pen onto</strong></p><p><strong>paper.</strong></p><p><br></p><p><strong><em>I want you to feel each word each thought and each emotion as I did.</em></strong></p><p><strong><em>Let it build you bate you and break your heart as it did my own.</em></strong></p><p><strong><em>Share it with me so I no longer must carry it alone.</em></strong></p>