Living with depression

Depression suffering from depression what is it? All my life in one form or another I have suffered from depression.I don't know how to begin this book so I'm just going to try to do my best. I know that this was not going to be easy my mind is going to turmoil and I am lost for words.As I am typing this I am suffering from depression you could say there is a voice inside my head speaking to me telling me not to write down what I am saying but I'm going try my best to get as much information as I can.It's hard to talk about depression most people try to ignore it's and hope it will go away but that never happens I am trying to write but the depression is slowing me down it's holding me back I'm full of despair.Most of this is not going to make sense to some people especially if you don't suffer from Depression. So I'm going try to explain what I am going through what I am suffering from. all is not well the thoughts in my head are of Suicide and ending my suffering.It's not easy writing down which one is thinking while suffering from depression at the same time.I just want to end everything; I don't want to go on any longer. I don't feel That I have the strength to deal with life any longer I just want to give up. I don't feel like there's anything to live for I just want to give up.