lost my classmates : hurt myself

Sometimes I lost my vission to tell you about the day and night depression because I know well you never know me from the inner side of path but still tried to said everything in front of you because I lost everything against you in the phage of happiness you never understand my felling babe but its ok tell you that you are noth with mein in the era of my bad days atleast there was no fight against you because now everything is stable and maybes destructive well as you are not just a love for me because I never supposed that we are connected and then fight and our relatioship became toxic for you in a single moment.