Love Buzz

<p><strong><em>Love is most glorious. Love also rips you apart.</em></strong></p><p><br></p><p><strong>Jonas</strong></p><p>When I woke this morning I didn't expect this. For Autumn's past to step in and rip away everything I love. Autumn asks for patience but with each passing day she slips farther from my grasp.</p><p><br></p><p>I refuse to lose Autumn or Clementine. Not to him. Not to anyone.</p><p><em>They are my girls. Always.</em></p><p><br></p><p>As the picture perfect life I envision with them slowly fades the pain beneath my sternum grows more powerful.</p><p>Each passing day my chest tightens at the loss of them.</p><p><br></p><p>I never imagined I would discover the love of my life only to lose her.</p><p><br></p><p><strong>Autumn</strong></p><p>When I woke this morning I never saw this coming. My ex storming back into my life and threatening to steal everything I hold precious. Not just my daughter but also my livelihood. And I refuse to let him do either.</p><p><br></p><p>Until this ends I must let go of my newfound selfishness and focus solely on Clementine.</p><p><em>Until this ends I must forget about love. Temporarily.</em></p><p><br></p><p>When I memorized Jonas's heartbeat I had no idea I would need to recall it in my lonely bed so soon.</p><p>I had no idea my heart would ache so profusely in his absence.</p><p><br></p><p>I have never known pain like this. And I have never been so torn.</p><p><br></p><p>...hopefully our love will survive the storm.</p>