Memwars: A Story of Survival

Why cant I be like everyone else Im always asking myself. Simple events like driving my car meeting new people or even making easy day-to-day decisions are constant dilemmas for me. Hypervigilance takes over because I swear that same car has taken the same turns that I have. Sheer distrust in nearly every human being has me on the verge of being downright reclusive. And sadly constantly second-guessing my own judgment makes it difficult if not impossible to make choices. PTSD is a constant reminder that I am not the same happy-go-lucky So-Cal girl that I was 11 years ago. A couple of tours of duty to Iraq have made me a changed woman. After over a decade of self -denial I finally began the journey to get the treatment that I so badly needed. I want to share my story; of the person I was the person I became and the person who fights every day just to make it to the end of the night and do it again the next day. I figured maybe just maybe theres someone else out there whos like me. Someone who needs to know that they arent as alone as they might think.