My Horror Within: Either makes you or breaks you

Maybe Im the broken one. I think there is something wrong with me. How does this keep happening to me? How the hell do I keep finding myself in this position. Why do I believe in people?Can life get better? Or is this all I deserve in life? You learn to survive youre always in survival-mode running on autopilot.Terrified you walk around on eggshells just waiting for the blow up or the next thing I havent done to his standards. If only I did things better or wasnt a smart-ass around your friends. Maybe if I didnt stand up for myself. Or maybe next I would be dead.Now I can breathe again. Life is not as hard. But I wonder how the hell I got my life so wrong. Because if this is your love I dont want it. I feel more isolated now than ever before. Now I live day to day. I only focus on my little boy protecting him as much as I can.Wow. Now Im in the fight of my life. In a blink of eye. I hear a voice open your eyes. Are you with me now? Do you know where you are? I slowly open my eyes. I want to say in a spaceship. Im pretty sure though its a hospital somewhere. Petrified Im going to be a quadriplegic. All I know is I have one long hard road ahead. Could this be it? Could this finally break me?