My Secret Self

<p><em>My Secret Self</em> is an internalised story of my life and my impressions of the world around me. I kept my views of that world and of other people a secret. I felt misunderstood. If I shared my views I felt I’d be laughed at. I would keep my biggest secret a secret. I saw magic in nature and nature could be trusted to support me in my times of trouble.</p><p><em>Our family lived only as individuals;</em> <em>we lived in a world of pretence lies shame guilt and conditionings under a grief imposed on us. Innocence was lost due to the manipulations of my grandmother through her fears of being isolated.</em></p><p>As I observed these people I knew my life would be different. I coped by observing others and realising this is not how a family should be. </p><p> </p>