No Holds Barred: No Holding Back

No Holds Barred: No Holding Back is a personal testimony. When I first sat down to write I made two promises. The first was to be open and honest about who I was and what I did. For years I felt as if I were wearing a mask: as if I was not genuine as a person a parent and as a pastor. The skeletons I buried resurfaced. Trust me this promise was demanding especially when you are forced to face the truth about who you are. Many times I wanted to stop writing the book in its entirety or alter some scenes. But I couldnt. The second promise was to come to terms with the truth. Despite how hard I wanted to be the young man again when everything was said and done I came to this simple conclusion: God cannot undo what has been done. The battle to discern whether I was genuine a genius or someone who learned how to disguise his true nature came to rest.