Ocd and Religious Scruples

Theodore I Have Something Very Embarrassing To Admit To You. I Frequently Need To Confess Sinful Thoughts To My Mother And If I Dont Confess These Sinful Thoughts To Her Then My O.C.D. Tells Me That God Will Take Away My Boyfriend. I Know This Is So Stupid But O.C.D. Takes Over My Mind Like A Magical Evil Thing. It Constantly Tells Me That I Must Act And Act Now- It Gives Me Problems To Solve. I Know God Would Not Do This But The Doubt From The Magical Evil Thing Invades My Brain Relentlessly. I Swear My Brain Has Lost Touch With All Reality. All I Want To Do Now Is Sleep; My Body Is Weak And My Muscles Are So Tight They Scream For Relief; I Feel Like A Nervous Wreck. Furthermore The Doubt And Fear Of Losing My Boyfriend Is Affecting Me. My Heart Is Palpitating Recklessly And I Fear A Sense Of Doom In My Brain. I Dont Want To Lose My Boyfriend.