Pain So Deep

November 16 2011Its three oclock in the morning. I hear my phone ring. I roll over in bed and look over to my phone and my heart drops. I just need to smoke and go to sleep! I cant even think straight right now I thought. I kept telling myself One more day Shon... one more day.Half-asleep and half-lit from the smoke I nervously answer the phone. No answer! Im curious but anxious. I hang up and realize that in these last few days it feels like everything and everyone is closing in on me!The night was quiet until I heard a key jiggling in the hotel door. There was a push and I realized the door was locked! My head pops up to my dismay there was another push and I could see the door coming off the hinges. My heart dropped to my shoes. I know its over. Theres nowhere to run and nowhere to escape.For a brief moment I was lost in time. My palms were sweating and my heart began to race. I felt like there was an elephant sitting on my chest. My mind was racing a million thoughts per second. But the only thought that stuck was Fuck! Im caught! Im about to lose my freedom and I wont see it again for a long time.What happened next was a strike of lighting that would change my entire life. The flashlights! The riot gear! Guns out ready to shoot if I make one wrong move! I remember someone shouting Get on the floor! Police rush in flipping the mattress demanding to know where the guns are. In my head I know that there are no guns in this room. But there were so many cops everyone was staring at me and at this time I knew I was stuck!Everyone wants to know what really happened. Everyone wants to know how it all went down.Here is my story pure and uncut!