Pinpoints of Light: Escaping the Abyss of Abuse

Mental illness. Addiction. Pain. Fear. Control. Abuse. What images do those words stir in your minds eye? For me those words paint a darkening abyss filled with millions of gallons of heaviness guilt and duty trapping me in tangible darkness. My former spouse could not see us or find us because he was locked away in his own mind of mental illness then became trapped by substance abuse and would strike out in forms of Domestic Violence. He had suffered painful experiences in his childhood and that pain warped and twisted his mind and awakened the genetic mental illness that runs in his family. I share the stories as he told them to me: sometimes during drunken depressed states and other times with sober clarity to give background. I describe abuse in two ways: the hunter and the caged animal. Both ultimately have control as the foundation. His mental illness was awakened from his pain and as stress was added to it he needed to control everything. How? As a caged animal strikes out at anyone to free itself; others are damaged in that process. In nine years of marriage we went through various stages; incredible rays of the sun to dimming light to growing darkness to finally inky blackness of the abyss of abuse. Why do I share this story? I write it for the victim. Why? Because there is more than hope there is light and I want you to know that you have worth within you more than you can ever know.I am an author speaker and life strengthening coach who helps the battered beaten and broken discover their strength to heal so that they become a victor in the light! My story is what I learned as I descended into this dark abyss and how I found pinpoints of light that led me back out of it. The events that occurred will be told in the most accurate way I can: from my journals.It brings me hope to know this book will give each reader an opportunity to learn the processes I used when escaping my abyss of abuse. My clients their advocates and the supporters deepen their value and their self-worth because they learn that they are WORTH it!