Ritchie Boy

<I>When my first brother died and I received the call in Seattle it was as if an eagle had reached into me and ripped out all of my organs. I felt a big gaping hole inside of me-an eternal dark Void. I put tears memories laughter and more tears into that hole but the pain wouldn't stop.</I></P> <P><I>After a while I didn't even realize that I was in mourning. As I searched for my brother I didn't know what I was looking for; I was just endlessly searching restless and dying inside. </I></P><P>On August 6 1987 author Ida Hildebrand's brother Richard Vernon Hildebrand committed suicide. <I>Ritchie Boy</I> is the vivid description of her personal experience during this heartbreaking ordeal.</P><P>The motivation behind <I>Ritchie Boy</I> is Hildebrand's hope that those struggling with life's pressures will be moved to make positive changes in their lives or to help others seek a path to a happier life. By embracing pain letting it wash over you and feeling it in every cell of your being you will be ready to let it go. Everyone knows that there is tremendous pain when a loved one is lost-but there is also great joy in having known and shared your life with that special person.</P>