Second Birthday: A Personal Confrontation with Illness Pain and Death (William Stringfellow Library)

To endure pain is to suffer anticipation of death in both mind and body. It must be acknowledged confronted suffered and survived on its own terms as it were as the very aggression of death against life. What must be faced and felt in the uttermost of a persons being is that assault of the power of death feigning to be sovereign over life--over the particular life of a particular person and over all of existence throughout all of history. It is so to speak only then and there--where there is no equivocation or escape possible from the fullness of deaths vigor and brutality when a person is exposed to absolute vulnerability--that life can be beheld and welcomed as the gift which life is. William Stringfellow almost died. In the spring of 1968 he contracted a baffling and apparently hopeless disease that horribly wasted his body before a last-ditch operation brought about a dramatic cure. This is Stringfellows own account of that ordeal of pain and of the fundamental beliefs that sustained him in his agony and gave him the courage to undergo the dangerous surgery that saved his life. His vivid description of that experience told without emotion or cant is both startling and strengthening. His story is a personal testimony to the relevance of faith and love in the mystery of healing and to the gift of life itself that few of us take time to recognize.