Seeing Buttercups

Seeing Buttercups Is The Sequel To Surviving Kadee. It Is The Troubled Tale Of Jennifer Meredith A Woman Who Escaped The Torment Of Active Addiction Only To Return To It A Decade Later. She Recounts The Story Of Her Unhappy Life To Her Best Friend Tessa Parker - A Woman With Whom She Hasn'T Spoken For Five Years. In Turn Tessa Shares Her Struggles And The Accompanying Triumphs Afforded Her Through Living A Life Of Recovery. From Seeing Buttercups:I Spend My Conscious Minutes Wondering How Things Could Be Different. How Things Could Be Better. How Things Could Be More Than Things. I Know You'Re Thinking Live In Today. But What Is Today Except Tomorrow'S Yesterday? It'S Easier Living Inside My Head With The Few Happy Memories I'Ve Managed To Hide In A Secret Corner. Escape.It'S Easier To Escape Than To Live. I Doubt If You'D Understand What Goes Through My Mind These Days Though You'Ve Heard About Some Of The Drastic Changes I'Ve Made. I Know I Deserve Everything I'Ve Been Given. I Have Nowhere To Go No Place To Be And No One To Love Me. I Have Nothing Left Of Myself. I Have Nothing Left To Make Me Want To Live. I Take That Back I'Ve Got A Fix Left A Shot To Numb All These Feelings For A Little While. Something That Will Kill Me For A Little While And Sedate The Monster In My Head. With It I Am Instantly In Heaven. I Know No Pain. No Torment. No One Can Hurt Me Including Myself. I Have To Have It. It'S Like An Overdriven Gravitational Pull Sucking Me In Every Second Of Every Minute. My Whole Life In Six Letters: H.E.R.O.I.N.