<p>I've been many things in my life: daughter friend student lover wife...and now widow.</p><p>Getting past those labels and finding who I could be without them was the hardest thing I've ever done.</p><p>Then I became friends with Brendon Connolly.</p><p>Every time I look at him I see a past I see a present and I'm afraid if I look too hard I'll see a future.</p>