The Burning House Always Takes the One That Slept: Abusive Marriage

My story perhaps is like one of many whom ever had to deal with any form of perversion; would know it's an act that steal your identity and self-worth a pain so unimaginable the acts are beyond the bounds of your understanding it's a pain that hurt so deep it penetrate the soul to where you're crying on the inside out hoping for help in silence, hoping someone can detect the pain you feel and make it go away you're in so deep you see no way our you learn to cover up the shame by putting on this façade as if nothing is wrong you walk around day in day our convincing yourself this is only a phase that will soon subside knowing its only has gotten worse, you wear this fake smile and pretend for so long until you've almost convince yourself everything will be alright knowing you're lying, you've been mold better yet brainwash were you began to second guess yourself into thinking that perhaps maybe it is your fault it hopes some type of normalcy would began to take place, to relieve the pain your going through until you develop the strength and now how to escape you from evil taskmaster, you even began to give up the fight for your survival in the mist of all your confusion however in all actuality it's really the fear you're carrying for your abuser it's how your abuser try to process your brain your thought life into thinking it's something you've done wrong. In the mist of this madness, hopes of trying to build his momentum by placing his cowardly doubt on your shoulders and in the process trying to elude you into thinking know one cares nor will help you so you continue to live in this fear of silence and shame, until you come to learn how to master every hurt and emotion, however if you're not careful you can also stumble into self denial or better yet you could fall prey to his web lies or eventually slip into a comatose state of mind to were your just lifeless so much so it began to drain you mentality and