The Cancer Odyssey

...there exists in the universe...the 'Physics of the Quest' - a force of nature governed by laws as real as ...gravity or momentum.? Quest Physics...goes like this: If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting...and set out on a truth-seeking journey and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared...to face...some very difficult realities about yourself...then truth will not be withheld from you. (from the movie Eat Pray Love). Last year was a very scary year for me.? I was entering uncharted territory.? The term Quest Physics is the best way to describe my approach to this situation.? I am learning to live in the moment.? It is natural to reflect backward or to project forward.? Like most people I like to think about where I've been and where I am going.? But looking back now makes me shudder.? I am NOT going back there.? Ever.? I can't even bear to wear the sweat suits I wore during post-surgical visits because of their strong association with that ordeal.? I had to suspend everything I thought I knew about chemotherapy in order to find the truth.? I had to be brave.? And then I started out on my truth-seeking journey.? I was very aware of everything; I was searching for clues to this great life puzzle. Since unintentionally venturing into the oncology world in late 2009 I discovered that chemotherapy is the greatest fraud ever perpetrated upon the American public.? My hope is that this fact will reach the public consciousness and that the Big Pharma-FDA complex will be exposed for what it is: a cartel that colludes with a focus not on curing cancer but on generating profits for the bottom line.? Does chemotherapy work?? Maybe sometimes with some specific cancers.? But very often it does not work.? The collateral damage that comes with the best weapon used in the war on cancer