The grave that was never filled

I walk around turn my head back and see nothing but all fog. It disappears when I get closer I see him he's right there. Standing wearing his favourite sky blue jeans and shirt always the same colour. I go close held his hand in mine but he turned away in the black fog. Now it's all black. My whole life is black. I'm stuck stuck for a long time. There's no light no hope. Not even him. So how do I hold myself how do I get out of it? No idea I fear that I would be stuck here for forever! Can someone call her? Because after him she's the only hope for me.