The Reality of Wanting My Bully

<p><strong style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Kieran</strong></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Jace Ryan is such a cliché. The popular star baseball player who can get any girl he wants.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>He's also a close-minded jerk who can't seem to understand why a guy would ever want to wear makeup.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>He won't leave me alone claiming that what I choose to wear is distracting that I'm a freak for being different. His bullying is annoying and yeah I might have been afraid once or twice but I won't let it get to me.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I won't change who I am for anyone.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>And despite what he might say in front of his friends Jace doesn't actually seem to hate me as much as he claims.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Especially when we're alone and I'm on my knees for him.</span></p><p></p><p><strong style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Jace</strong></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I have a lot of regrets in life but the way things blew up with Kieran Delaney thirteen years ago is at the very top of my list.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I'm sure he hasn't thought about me since then but not a day goes by that I haven't wondered what might have been. It's so easy to pretend like he's still in my life when I can watch all of his videos like all of his posts. Who knew he'd become so famous for the very thing I used to bully him for?</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>I signed up for </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>Love Without Labels</em><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)> a label-free dating show in an attempt to finally get over him. When they took away my phone I thought it would finally help me move on. I found someone new someone who made me laugh and forget about Kieran. Someone who I thought I could have a future with. But when I met him in person I realized it's been </span><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>him</em><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)> the whole time.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>The man I hurt all of those years ago.</span></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>The man I've loved in silence ever since.</span></p><p></p><p><span style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>He might think things are fake between us but I know this is my one chance to prove I'm not the same guy who broke his heart.</span></p><p><em style=background-color: rgba(255 255 255 1); color: rgba(15 17 17 1)>The Reality of Wanting My Bully is a 137k-word dual-POV romance told in two parts. It's based on real-life bullying set in 2010-2012. It is NOT a dark romance. It's a story about the challenges of growing up without positive support healing forgiveness and realizing that the people we were at eighteen aren't the people we're destined to become.</em></p>