The Rolley Coaster Ride

My husband Michael killed himself. This is the true story of my life with and without him. He was my husband of five years whom I loved very much. One day he decided to take his own life. I lost him to his love affair with drugs. I could not compete. What do you do when someone you love is consumed and ultimately destroyed right before your eyes? In your arms? And you are powerless to stop it? What do you do? Ride with me on this adventure which was deeply tragic yes but often humorous somewhat magical and hopefully inspirational. Experience the joys and love denial and despair betrayal and heartbreak and ultimately the decision to rise above my pain and to soar. You see I discovered something along the way. That what I do with my life if I realize it or not is my choice. I had to choose if I was going to die myself just survive or truly live. I was so blessed to have known him at all to be loved by him. He showed me the value of life. I choose to not throw such a beautiful gift out the window just because he had to leave. I choose to LIVE. I choose to honor the sweet soul of my husband. I choose to honor the Spirit of God within me and TRULY LIVE. This is my story. It could be yours too. As a widow who lost the Love of her Life as a mother of a son who has done drugs this story is: HEART WRENCHING SOUL SEARCHING INSPIRATIONAL - A CANNOT-PUT-DOWN BOOK. Thank you Carolyn Elise my friend for telling your story. I love you! - Diane Kotula AN INCREDIBLE STORY OF LOVE LOSS AND COURAGE TO MOVE FORWARD. ONE WOMAN'S JOURNEY INTO AN ENLIGHTENED LIFE. - Suzanne Sowa