The Unforgotten Prayer

<p>This is my story - my life from the horrors of war and slaughter to the travails of change and atonement. For much of my life I lived in fear that my past would catch up to me. I hid my beliefs and prejudices and walked among the gentle unsuspecting people of a small American town. I am or was an embodiment of madness atrocity cruelty and horror. </p> <p>I had to remind myself how to behave react and interact with those around me. I could not pick my friends neighbors or the people I would like to associate with. I could not express my desires and thoughts. I could not do what I wanted to do. I was locked inside a mad world without the ability to make any contribution as I used to do - during the war and before it. </p> <p>Friends and neighbors? I shunned them. Social groups and religious organizations? I shunned them as well. Often I thought it better to turn myself in or die one way or another - just to get everything over with. </p> <p>That changed one day - a miraculous day when a young child came into my life and helped me back into life reappraisal and a quest for atonement. </p> <p>That young child was Jewish. </p> <p>And I am a former SS officer.</p>