The story is about the struggles of a bisexual man who did not dare to come out in the fifties and sixties for various reasons. At that time, it was not a socially acceptable thing and was actually a taboo.So, he tucks in his feelings and lives the life of a 'normal' man, fulfilling his military service, going to college, and working as a representative of medicines. Besides the socially was this the second reason not to come out of the closet. How customers, in that time, would react?With the necessary anecdotes, this book describes this normal life.The social environment determines much, and religion even more. Generally feelings cannot shift away. From time to time the homosexual feelings pop-upYou can't change yourself, remain yourself, you're primarily just a human.Coming out can be a relief for your mind, but also a tragedy as many taboos start restricting your freedom.Eventually, he breaks away from the 'normal' life, prosperity and secure family life as he comes out of the closet much later in his life.When he comes out in the end, he meets an Indian friend, In India it was as in the Netherlands in the fifties. It was look like the same movie from that times was showed again, but now in India. Also, taboos play an important role. That living together can be a risk, get suddenly true. The risk; suddenly there happens somewhat comes from the living togetherThe book also shows that Indian society is very complicated, and Indian society is far behind Netherlands when it comes to accepting homosexuality.It is to compare India of today with the Netherlands in the fifties-sixties.