Transparency

Awakened on a Sunday morning suddenly out of my sleep. It was about 2am. The thought of a lot of things was running through my mind. Things like; who am I really? Is all the work I am doing worth all the energy I put out? Is this the road I am supposed to be on or am I forcing my existence? Then I said to myself out loud WILL THE REAL TAMMY STAND UP?! Have you had a moment like that? Are there times when the service you've just preached was just a formality and in secret you felt the presence of The Holy Spirit was absent? Who did you tell or did you just covered up your feelings and pretend you still have your game together? Husbands Wives are your communications clear enough to each other making your relationship solid or is there some turbidness to it (trust me turbidness is a real word)? When we are doing the work of GOD we must be transparent or else the glory of The Lord cannot be seen and His work cannot be done effectively through us if we are not transparent.