Unattainable Age of Reason

While Some Were Brought Into Life Being Nurtured In The Best Way With Diligence . . . Care . . . And Being In Loved And Thus Felt Loved On The Farther Side Some Walked Through Life With Years Of Pain - Pain Which Was Unbearable Yet One Endured; Pain Which Was Unimaginable Yet One Accepted To Exist. Perhaps Some Are Pleased To Be Born . . . Yet Some Are Half - Hearted When They Came To Be And Are An Inch Away From The Feeling Of Being Unborn. I Clasped To Life. I Clasped While Pain Was Never Of Impossibility In My Existence. Consequences Of Life Which Are Within Bounds Of Reason And Beyond It Is My Life - Blood. I Lived And Took Every Breath. I Was Balancing Upside Down On My Own Hands. I Had To Save Me. I Am Gloria . . . And This Is My Story. I Have An Inner Desire To Tell My Story Partly Because I Want To Rant My Anger Partly To Educate On The Effects Of Child Abuse. Mostly I Want To Vindicate My Life. Although I Had Made Many Bad Decisions In My Stages Of Life I Feel Strongly That I Came Out A Good Person. The Early Years Of Abuse Have Affected Me To This Day. I Am Held Together With Disassociation Disorder. I Take One Day At A Time. Some Days Are Good; Some Are Very Bad. After My Diagnosis I Am More At Peace And I Thank God Every Day For Giving Me The Ability To Forget When I Had To And To Remember When I Should. Gloria Lehtola