Was it love

Oh when you're so alone in life in the world so completely without female contact and what else you can expect from a lovely woman you start to fantasize. To put together a woman in a dream as one imagines being happy with her. Yes I've just turned thirty-five and have already been married. My feelings and my internal clock tell me if I don't start looking for women now many different ones not only in terms of appearance but also in terms of character and I test and try each one out until I suddenly notice in a woman because my heart is screaming and my mind is totally floating that's her! If I don't have the courage to do so life will pass me by without me experiencing anything. How is she supposed to know I'm waiting for her?