What Are You Doing To Me

March 12th. 23:51 PM Don't let this love and lust be for one day. Be obsessed with it. Get a habit of it. my phone chimed. I waited for his words to flow and flood over my skin as the adrenaline rush took control it had been long since I felt it. In fact I wondered if I've felt this same way before. I haven't have I? I love you. My phone beeped again. You do? I asked thousands of questions running through my mind and all I could frame was 'you do? '. I knew this is just the beginning of something that's going to impact me majorly. Yes he had replied. I love you too so fuckin much. I replied. Brimming with a different kind of euphoria a different state of serene that only I knew. That I might fail to explain it to him even if I never give up trying so. I guess he'd never know. ~ ~ I never wanted to fall in love again all over again until his reply arrived that one fine night which changed all of the days and nights after for me. In the moment I gave in gave myself in for him for myself and what I was feeling. I never had a choice to resist and even if I had one I wouldn't have resisted. Would I? I doubt.