What Forever Feels Like

<p>He says I'm too much too old too crazy and too bold - for my own good. Makes me feel like I'm not enough.</p><p></p><p>I try to be more give more do more. Make myself less noticeable as I silence my desires my goals my dreams and the holes - inside my heart.</p><p></p><p>It must be my fault. What am I doing wrong? What do I not see? Why can't I just be - me?</p><p></p><p>What happened? This all played out so differently in my mind. </p><p></p><p>The signs were there weren't they? How could I be so blind to the dimming of my own light in each and every fight in order to feed his need - to be right?</p><p></p><p class=ql-align-justify>A memoir written in poetic verse and third collection in the Fragile Heart Series the author shares her gradual awakening after losing herself to a long-term toxic relationship. Through sacrifice loss shame and resilience comes the ultimate realization - she is worth more - she deserves better. </p><p></p><p><strong>From the back cover:</strong></p><p></p><p class=ql-align-center><strong>It was supposed to be a love story.</strong></p><p class=ql-align-center></p><p class=ql-align-center><strong>Maybe it's just another tragedy.</strong></p><p></p><p>This collection of poetry is broken into three parts. It is the continuation of one heart's journey after finding their person only to wake up one day and find they were actually a shell of who they once were; who they were meant to be. It is a struggle of deep passion love and affection; sacrifice betrayal and a true account of how blind love can really be. A stark reminder that the only person who needs to love and accept us - is ourselves. </p><p></p><p><em>it was ride or die</em></p><p></p><p><em>until I was shaken</em></p><p><em>realized I was mistaken</em></p><p><em>raised my sword</em></p><p><em>to self-preservation</em></p><p></p><p><em>and told myself</em></p><p><em>I would rather die</em></p><p><em>than ride any further</em></p><p><em>on this lame ass horse</em></p><p></p><p><strong>Reading order:</strong></p><p></p><p><em>love and other company</em></p><p><em>and yet I feel</em></p><p><em>what forever feels like</em></p><p></p>